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The grand finale for
the Australian Grand Prix

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will decide
the 1994 World Championship.

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In my whole life,
people have been asking me

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if I was going to be
a racing driver like my dad.

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The truth is,

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I've never
wanted to become a racing driver.

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And yet there I was,

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within a point
of winning the world championship.

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It's almost like I was trying
to get back to the start again.

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Get back to the place
that it all went off the rails.

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A lot of people have come
in the hope that this man

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is going to be able to do something
that his late, great father,

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double world champion
Graham Hill did.

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And if I could get
back to the start again...

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...maybe I could put right
everything that went wrong.

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Australia is go!

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Oh!
Damon Hill out of the Grand Prix!

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The world championship has
literally been torn from his hands.

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For Damon
to be saying it's too slow,

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there must be too much
wheel spin then.

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He was kind of on the peripheries
of a friendship group.

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He says we went to the same parties.
I have no memory of him whatsoever.

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On one particular party night,

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I saw him sitting outside,

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clad from head to toe
in grimy leathers

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and sitting astride this big
motorbike. And I think,

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"Hmm, OK," you know.

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And it was in a big warehouse.

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And I looked across, and on the
other side of the room was Damon.

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And it was like an epiphany.

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I understood with absolute clarity
that that was my husband.

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And it was the most peculiar thing

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because we'd literally
said two words to each other.

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Got rid of the guy I was talking to.

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I thought,
"I better go and talk to Damon"

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and actually find out
what my husband is like.

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A wild Mandarin...
That's a wild Mandarin duck.

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Do you like it, Georgie?
Yes, it's lovely.

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You like ducks, don't you?
Mm.

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When I met Georgie, she was wary.

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I saw that as a challenge to try
and convince her I was, erm...

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...someone she could trust.

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Damon was a very complicated guy.

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Yeah, this is Damon Hill.
The juggler, the ace.

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On the surface,
he was joking and mucking about.

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but he was one of the saddest people
I'd ever come across in my life.

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Fantastic!

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He just loved motorbikes,
and that's what he wanted to do.

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You're in your own world
on a motorbike.

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It is just freedom.

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His father won his first
world championship in 1962,

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so he accepts whatever
branch of racing he goes for,

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he'll always be
in his father's shadow.

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I'm not my father.

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I hope I might have a little
bit of his talent,

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but I think mostly
he had determination,

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and that comes from something
else that you can't inherit.

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So, I'm still trying.

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We had this trip to some
motorbike mechanic place,

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and he needed his
bike for the weekend,

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and it all became very stressful.

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And we suddenly screeched out,

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to a stop outside this old church
and churchyard,

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and that's where his father
was buried.

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And he was absolutely bereft
and in floods of tears.

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And that was the first time he'd
ever mentioned his father to me.

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And that was six months
after we'd met.

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If you look at the amount of races he
did in the 60s

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and the places he raced in,

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it's not surprising
he wasn't there much.

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It was almost like the house came
alive when he came back.

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He put on this
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But also had a twinkle in his eye.

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My dad had an attitude which was,

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"I am going to make the most
of every second of my life."

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Motor racing,
obviously, has got its dangers.

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And because of this,

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you become much more aware of life.

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I mean,
you extract more out of life.

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You go out in the garden,
and you look at the flowers

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and you hear the birds,
and you see the grass,

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and then you think, "Well,
I'm sure there must be a god."

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I cannot prove to myself
that there isn't one.

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Journalists didn't think that he
was a natural driver.

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He gave the impression that he
didn't have an innate ability.

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I think he must have done.
There's no way

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you can win the Monaco
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..without having
some natural ability.

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It can't just be done
on pure determination and grit.

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But if you combine the two things...

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...you get Graham Hill.

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I envy Graham Hill
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he's a formidable driver
but because he's also an original.

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I wasn't a car racing fan, but I
definitely was a fan of Graham Hill.

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I didn't know to clap quite so much
about that one but...

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Being a professional racing driver
was lucrative in those days.

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You might call it
danger money or whatever,

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but as a family,
it got a real taste of the high life.

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Hello.  Who said that?

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I did.

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What an extraordinary thing.

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We were very lucky children.

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Two daddies?

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Two daddies.

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Two Bridgets

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and two Damons!
Gosh.

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When I was 15, he announced

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that he was going to retire
from full-time racing.

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He wanted to concentrate
on his team, Embassy Racing.

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Very good.

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Thank God for that!

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You know, because we've
lived with this our whole lives,

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that you could be
killed in a racing car.

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And now you're going to stop.
Thank God for that.

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Six months later,

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I was watching
TV with my younger sister, Samantha.

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We're expecting Dad home.
My mum is in the kitchen.

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And then, "We interrupt this
programme to bring you a news flash."

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It was late last night
when Hill's own Piper Aztec

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smashed into a screen of trees...

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I can remember just...

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that kind of wave of heat
coming up through my legs

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and then just into my face.

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And I just remember just...

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clocking what this meant,

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not being sure but being terrified.

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The crash,
on the edge of Arkley Golf course,

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virtually wiped out the
Embassy Hill racing team,

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including two drivers
and the manager.

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The plane burnt out in minutes...

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I went up to her and said,

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"Mum, erm...

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they think there's a plane crash."
Erm...

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"What do you mean?"

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"I've just seen it
on the television."

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Erm...

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And erm... She just went hysterical.

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She just... started screaming and...

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erm... saying...

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getting very cross because she said,
"I knew it was too good to be true."

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That point onwards,
it was just pandemonium

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and just horror, really.

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Yeah. Just...

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That was the end, really.

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Then it turns out
the plane wasn't insured.

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He didn't have the right licence...

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...to support the business.

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He'd borrowed money.

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The other men on board had families
too.

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Dad's estate was vulnerable
from every angle. This is a mess,

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and there's not gonna be anything
left to look after my mum or us kids.

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A lot of the things in the house
went to auction,

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and eventually, the house had to go.

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I can remember...

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...feeling I would like
to have been with him on the plane.

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I didn't want to be here.

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I want... I would...

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I would have given up.

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I would've exchange places
with someone else on the plane.

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We had been living
together for a couple of years.

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He'd been away for a week,
and I missed him.

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So, I'd made a nice supper
and raining outside and cold and...

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Georgie. You bought lamb chops?

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When he got back, he came in.

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I was literally getting
the supper out the oven.

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He said,
"I'm going to race in Formula 1,

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and I'm going to become
a world champion."

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"OK. That's great.
Do you want some food?"

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And we kind of carried
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and I thought, "Well, he probably
will," because he absolutely

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is one of the most determined people
I've ever met in my life.

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It's now eight years
since Graham Hill,

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one of motor racing's greatest
characters, was lost to the sport.

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Since that time,
his 23-year-old son,

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Damon Hill,
has been racing motorbikes.

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And at Brands Hatch yesterday,
wearing his father's helmet,

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he made his motor racing debut
in the Formula Ford 2000 trophy.

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You're on the verge
of your first race.

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What are your hopes and ambitions?

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Where do you
want to go onto in this sport?

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Well, I'd like to go to the top.

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After my father had died,

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I did feel that I had
a responsibility on my shoulders.

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Especially towards my sisters.

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I'd like to, if I could, in some way,
I know it's probably impossible,

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but in some way fill
his shoes a little.

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An emotional day, too,
for Damon's mother, Bette...

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who'd seen his father rise
from a club race to world champion.

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Well, you've had your first
experience

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of driving in race traffic.
What do you think of it?

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It's pretty amazing, actually.
It's unbelievable.

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I'd started late, and so
I was already in my mid-20s.

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And so,
I was probably ten years too old.

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I'd been on bikes
instead of go-karts.

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I had a bit of a steep hill to climb.

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Was able to run and jump in,

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only I wasn't as consistent
as some of the others.

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People I raced against started
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and I got stuck on the rails
a little bit

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to the point where
eventually I had no money left.

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So, I'm 28 with no job,

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no career, and we're about
to have our first baby.

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Well, this is it,
Christmas at the Hill household.

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Happy Christmas!

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OK. Hitting recording.
This my husband...

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I was prepared to drive anything
to keep my head above water

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and pay the mortgage.

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One of the guys that I'd raced with
was the test driver for Williams.

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The test driver literally was someone
who just would do the donkey work.

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He was never going to get
shot at the number one slot at all.

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As a test driver, you were not
going to make it in Formula 1.

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But I was very keen to do this
because I needed the money.

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And I got a meeting
with Frank Williams

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and Patrick Head.

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I knew of Frank because he was
around when my dad was racing.

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Is it a sport anymore?
Oh, yeah.

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The name of the game here
is competition

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cos we're trying to prove we're out
there, the best on the racetrack.

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I know what Frank wants. He wants a
guy who is just going to do the job

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and do it properly
and not be a big pain in the arse.

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Not like some of his drivers.

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I'd be testing Nigel Mansell's car.

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It was just the most amazing car
I'd have driven.

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I was there to break it.

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To find the flaws in it.

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And I went round
and round and round.

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Nigel Mansell called me The Monkey.

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Damon, I suppose you'd really
like to be dressed in those clothes

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for the Grand Prix.

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I wouldn't mind sleeping in them
actually, you know.

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I feel part of the Williams team
when I'm wearing the overalls,

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and obviously
they're very successful.

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And the car is, er, currently
probably the best racing car

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that's ever been built.
Best Formula 1 car.

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The world motor racing champion
Nigel Mansell says he'll retire

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from Formula 1 competition
at the end of this season.

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Alain Prost had signed, and Nigel
Mansell was miffed by that

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and couldn't come to an agreement

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or didn't want to come
to an agreement with Frank.

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The issue of today, if you like,
in my mind is...

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who will be the second driver?

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Because we shall decide this week.

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And suddenly,
at the end of the season,

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the last moment when every other
driver had signed contracts to

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drive for other teams, there was
this empty space at Williams.

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And I thought, "I've got this one
chance to be in line

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for the best drive in Formula 1."

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Even flew down to Adelaide
in the last race of the season

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because I wanted Frank to see me.

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I hung around the back of the garage
like a bad penny.

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I was told that Frank was coming
down to this test in Portugal,

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and he's on the verge
of making his decision.

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:

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I had to fly down to Portugal
on the Sunday night

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to be there for Monday to go testing.

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Three o'clock,
I got in my car to head off

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and I'm stuck in this...

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50,000 people coming out
of a football match.

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And I'm not going to make it
for this test of a lifetime,

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where Frank is going to decide
whether or not I've got the drive.

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I got to Heathrow, I was thinking,

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"I'm leaving this car on the ramp,

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and they can blow it up.
I don't care."

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I got the flight.
I'm dripping in sweat.

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My heart is through the roof.

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And I look at the date...

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...and it's the 29th of November.

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Which is the day my dad died.

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And, er...

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..you know...

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I thought, "I've got to get this."

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Tell us, what's this?
What's going on?

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00:20:25,920 --> 00:20:28,559
Oh, crikey. Hang on, Damon,
there's a fax here for you.

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Ah, it's from Frank.

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Erm,
"Sorry, Damon, changed our mind...

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...Hakkinen is now driving for us
for £7 million."

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Is it good?

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The primary
purpose of this conference

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is to confirm that Damon will be a
regular driver for Canon Williams

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in the Williams Renault cars
in the 1993 World Championship.

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Primarily our requirement from him
is to not crash the car,

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is to get on the podium
as often as he can.

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And of course, therefore or thereby

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to win, to obtain, as many World
Championship points in 1993,

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to help the Canon Williams team

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retain its grip on the World
Championship for Constructors.

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"You will be responsible
for your own travel

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and accommodation expenses
at Grand Prix...

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00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:26,559
but we will pay for your wife
to attend any races you designate."

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00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:32,519
What's that all about?
That's not right. Never mind.

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00:21:32,520 --> 00:21:35,199
You're not paying for your travel
and accommodation, are you?

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00:21:35,200 --> 00:21:37,159
No.

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00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:39,519
You wouldn't have any money
left at the end of the year.

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00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:42,759
Oh, no, well, that's what has to be
thrashed about, you see.

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00:21:42,760 --> 00:21:45,399
That's my fax,

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my contract going through
to Williams.

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00:21:49,160 --> 00:21:50,879
What about Dad?

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00:21:50,880 --> 00:21:53,399
What would he have thought
of all of this, do you think?

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00:21:53,400 --> 00:21:55,879
I think he'd be very excited indeed.

300
00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:59,120
And perhaps he'd be a bit proud
of me as well.

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00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:11,879
This year, there's every
prospect of a season of excitement

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and drama and real competition.

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00:22:15,800 --> 00:22:19,079
Three-time world champion Alain
Prost is back

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to lead the Williams team,

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and Ayrton Senna, who we feared
might be taking a year off,

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he's here,
driving an all-new McLaren Ford.

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00:22:31,760 --> 00:22:34,599
I was trying to be what they wanted,

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00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:38,120
but I felt like I was on a very
thin ledge.

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00:22:41,040 --> 00:22:43,439
I knew I'd got to Formula 1 late.

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00:22:43,440 --> 00:22:46,680
I knew I was given a golden
opportunity.

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Now, I have to get the stamp
of approval as a Formula 1 driver.

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Got to make this stick.

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Away they go.
Senna's got a superb start.

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Damon Hill is into second position

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as they go
into the first left corner.

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00:23:11,480 --> 00:23:14,239
And look at that!
A complete spin by Damon Hill.

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He's over done it.

318
00:23:18,400 --> 00:23:21,119
And Damon Hill is in 12th position.

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00:23:21,120 --> 00:23:24,880
Ah,
that's Hill going off with Zanardi.

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00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:29,240
Disappointing debut for Williams.

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00:23:31,920 --> 00:23:33,960
Not a great start.

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00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:41,479
I satisfied everyone's
doubts about me because...

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00:23:41,480 --> 00:23:43,759
there were a lot of people
who were doubtful that Frank

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00:23:43,760 --> 00:23:47,680
had done the right thing, signing
someone as inexperienced as myself.

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00:23:53,320 --> 00:23:56,479
There are definitely drivers who have
no doubts about themselves.

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Second place driver, Ayrton Senna.

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00:24:00,520 --> 00:24:03,599
My confidence was conditional
on me performing well.

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00:24:03,600 --> 00:24:07,799
If I performed badly, then
the little gremlins would creep in

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00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:09,720
and go,
"Well, maybe I'm not up to it."

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00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:15,760
But I could not afford to fail.

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00:24:25,320 --> 00:24:29,160
We didn't expect our first child
to have a learning disability.

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00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:34,519
For me,
the first 24 hours were really hard,

333
00:24:34,520 --> 00:24:38,879
and I just thought, "I'm...

334
00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:40,960
"I don't know if I can do this.

335
00:24:42,120 --> 00:24:44,159
I'm going to be overwhelmed
by this."

336
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:50,639
And the hospital that we had him in,

337
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:54,119
they were giving us little addresses
of care homes

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00:24:54,120 --> 00:24:57,840
written on scraps of envelopes.

339
00:24:59,840 --> 00:25:03,759
He wasn't even 12 hours old, and
they laid out his future for him.

340
00:25:03,760 --> 00:25:06,320
And I felt...

341
00:25:07,720 --> 00:25:10,359
"Right, OK.
If that's all he's worth,

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00:25:10,360 --> 00:25:12,119
he's worth a lot more to us."

343
00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:19,079
Feeling this responsibility,

344
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:21,159
I had to support Oliver and Georgie,

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00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:24,359
really focused my determination.

346
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,639
The Brazilian Grand
Prix now comes down

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00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:32,720
to a straight fight
between Senna and Damon Hill.

348
00:25:34,160 --> 00:25:37,040
Well, he's in a position to try.

349
00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,000
And Hill has done it.

350
00:25:49,040 --> 00:25:50,839
Oh!

351
00:25:50,840 --> 00:25:53,919
Senna uses
all his superior experience.

352
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:59,039
And to the delirious delight
of his countrymen wins in Brazil.

353
00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:07,319
After the race,
he sent his manager round,

354
00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:10,919
and he said, "Ayrton would like
to see you in his motor home."

355
00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,279
So, I went round dutifully
and sat down,

356
00:26:13,280 --> 00:26:16,039
listened to Ayrton giving me
a little bit of fatherly advice.

357
00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:19,359
"It's dangerous,
and you need to be more careful."

358
00:26:19,360 --> 00:26:21,480
Lovely day for it.

359
00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:26,799
I was quite pleased with myself,
actually,

360
00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:28,639
that I'd upset him.

361
00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:30,439
You think they're probably...

362
00:26:30,440 --> 00:26:32,560
Yeah, I think you'll find
its the tyres, though.

363
00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:40,239
I was watching the gap between me
and Alain.

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00:26:40,240 --> 00:26:43,000
I was, at times, quicker than him.

365
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:45,679
I knew the car better than him.

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00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:48,519
I knew the team better than him.
And from time to time,

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00:26:48,520 --> 00:26:52,080
I did a better job in the car. Then
you start to believe in yourself.

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00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:56,439
Damon Hill passes Alain Prost.

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00:26:56,440 --> 00:26:58,719
Makes no bones about it either.

370
00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:00,759
He was supposed
to win the championship,

371
00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:04,200
and I was often told to back off
if I got close.

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00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:07,839
Damon, he just checked his mirror

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00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,640
to see exactly where Prost
was behind him.

374
00:27:13,280 --> 00:27:16,999
And Prost takes the lead.
No fight from Damon.

375
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:22,200
Very neatly done. Almost looked like
a beautiful team drill.

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00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:28,239
Exactly what were
the orders for Damon?

377
00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:31,479
Damon was asked to give
way to Alain,

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00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:35,399
which is the basis of his contract
and really not too surprising

379
00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:38,879
when you consider that Damon
is in his first year of Formula 1.

380
00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:43,359
In France, you received orders from
the boss not to pass Prost, right?

381
00:27:43,360 --> 00:27:45,679
What is the position
here for Silverstone?

382
00:27:45,680 --> 00:27:47,799
You just asked the wrong question.
Mm-hm?

383
00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:50,919
I said I'd answer one question.
I can't answer that one.

384
00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:52,800
This time, Damon can win?

385
00:27:54,280 --> 00:27:55,999
Yes. Yeah.

386
00:28:05,920 --> 00:28:08,519
He is leading and if he is
still there on lap 49

387
00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:12,319
if his car's reliable, we can hope,
from the English point of view,

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00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:14,680
that he is going
to win his first Grand Prix.

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00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:18,319
The race that his father
never did win.

390
00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:22,159
It would be wonderful for Damon
to get his first Grand Prix victory

391
00:28:22,160 --> 00:28:24,400
here in front of his home crowd.

392
00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:34,000
This is Damon Hill's supreme day.

393
00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:38,879
And there's an engine blowing!

394
00:28:38,880 --> 00:28:40,759
It... It...

395
00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:42,719
It's Damon Hill.

396
00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:45,680
Ah...
Argh!

397
00:28:47,120 --> 00:28:51,119
What can I or anybody say?

398
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:54,880
Damon Hill's Renault engine
has expired.

399
00:28:56,360 --> 00:28:59,679
And the Englishman
is not going to win.

400
00:28:59,680 --> 00:29:02,720
Alain Prost goes into the lead.

401
00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:06,119
And, er, ... I can just imagine

402
00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:08,639
what's going
through Damon Hill's mind now.

403
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:11,200
"What have I got to do
to win a Grand Prix?"

404
00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:38,199
My dad travelled on determination
and enthusiasm.

405
00:29:38,200 --> 00:29:41,880
Not being put off by disappointment.

406
00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:52,279
Say Daddy's good, Olly.

407
00:29:54,880 --> 00:30:00,279
The Formula 1 World
Champion of 1993 Alain Prost.

408
00:30:17,680 --> 00:30:20,159
He finished third in the
FIA World Drivers Championship.

409
00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:22,800
Ladies and gentlemen, a warm
welcome, please, for Damon Hill.

410
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,439
He gave us an extremely hard
time on occasions last year,

411
00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:34,239
and I'm glad to say
he's now on the same side.

412
00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:36,000
Ladies and gentlemen,
Ayrton Senna.

413
00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:47,160
The journalists were asking, "How
are you going to cope with Ayrton?"

414
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:51,039
What a great introduction I had:

415
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:55,239
Nigel Mansell, Alan Prost
and now Ayrton Senna.

416
00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:59,879
I wanted to find out how I could be
rated against these benchmarks.

417
00:30:59,880 --> 00:31:02,959
Same team, same car.
I'd know. I'd find out.

418
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:08,359
Ayrton had signed up
for what he thought was going to be

419
00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:11,839
the kind of experience that Alain
Prost had had with a dominant car.

420
00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:14,679
And it wasn't going to plan.

421
00:31:14,680 --> 00:31:17,199
The International
Motorsports Federation

422
00:31:17,200 --> 00:31:20,119
has banned some of
the controversial computer devices

423
00:31:20,120 --> 00:31:22,959
which help drivers
in Formula 1 motor racing.

424
00:31:22,960 --> 00:31:25,239
The ban is designed
to stop the domination

425
00:31:25,240 --> 00:31:28,239
of the richest Formula 1 teams
like Williams Renault,

426
00:31:28,240 --> 00:31:29,999
the world champions.

427
00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:33,919
Hi, Ayrton, how do you feel about
driving with the new regulations?

428
00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:35,679
It just makes it harder.

429
00:31:35,680 --> 00:31:39,399
I think with electronic suspension,
the cars were more controlled.

430
00:31:39,400 --> 00:31:42,079
Traction control
used to give a great help.

431
00:31:42,080 --> 00:31:45,799
You cannot afford
to go on the throttle

432
00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:47,879
and let the traction control
do the work for you.

433
00:31:47,880 --> 00:31:51,479
So, it is
more of a challenge than anything.

434
00:31:51,480 --> 00:31:53,479
When we first ran the car,

435
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:55,399
it was difficult to drive.

436
00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:03,400
Straight into the lead
goes Schumacher.

437
00:32:06,040 --> 00:32:07,959
And a spinner there. That is Senna.

438
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:09,920
Ayrton Senna is out.

439
00:32:11,240 --> 00:32:13,119
And off goes Damon Hill.

440
00:32:13,120 --> 00:32:15,000
My goodness,
this is not Williams' race.

441
00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:23,799
Ayrton stood by the edge of the track

442
00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:28,040
and felt he heard something that was
suspicious from Michael's car.

443
00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:35,319
There was suspicions about whether
or not

444
00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:37,760
Benetton still had traction control.

445
00:32:38,880 --> 00:32:42,999
And Michael Schumacher
wins the Pacific Grand Prix.

446
00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:45,759
Out comes the fist of victory.

447
00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:50,839
He's dominated in Japan,
as he dominated in Brazil.

448
00:32:50,840 --> 00:32:52,759
You don't want to be racing
against someone

449
00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:54,680
who you think is not playing
with a fair deck.

450
00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:57,759
But the attitude of Williams was,

451
00:32:57,760 --> 00:33:00,159
"We don't have evidence,
We don't know what they're doing.

452
00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:02,520
We're just gonna have to beat them
with what we've got."

453
00:33:20,720 --> 00:33:25,359
There was this pregnant
feel about returning to Europe.

454
00:33:25,360 --> 00:33:29,400
The fact that Imola marked the start
of the championship proper.

455
00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:33,359
If you are going to become
world champion,

456
00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:35,720
you'd have to start winning.

457
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:40,959
Almost like the feeling that there
was this thunder cloud

458
00:33:40,960 --> 00:33:42,800
that had to release all its energy...

459
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:45,799
...hanging over this race.

460
00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:49,320
The race starts in just
over two hours' time now.

461
00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:53,919
The drivers have
had their mandatory briefing,

462
00:33:53,920 --> 00:33:57,280
and they talk through safety
aspects on the track.

463
00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:01,879
Imola, it's, for us, I think,

464
00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:03,799
drivers, it's a very fast circuit,

465
00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:08,039
very demanding, because the speeds
we do around here are pretty high.

466
00:34:08,040 --> 00:34:13,119
And it takes
a lot of concentration to maintain,

467
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:16,519
most of the time,
control over the machine.

468
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:21,199
It's also a circuit
where the G-forces

469
00:34:21,200 --> 00:34:23,119
in our body and the neck
are pretty high

470
00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:27,839
because we're doing this corner
at 290 kilometres an hour.

471
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:31,559
It's a long corner and the neck
goes, goes, goes and the same...

472
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:33,679
I had gone to sit in the motorhome.

473
00:34:33,680 --> 00:34:38,800
I'm reading my book, and the door
opens, and in comes Ayrton.

474
00:34:40,440 --> 00:34:42,799
He starts to get dressed.

475
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:44,879
I'm thinking,
"Do you want me to leave?"

476
00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:47,399
And he'd go, "No, no, stay and talk.

477
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:51,239
Tell me, you've got little boys."
And I'm thinking, "Really?

478
00:34:51,240 --> 00:34:53,799
Ayrton's about to go out and race,

479
00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:56,279
does he really
want to hear about my little boys?"

480
00:34:56,280 --> 00:34:58,079
But he really did.

481
00:34:58,080 --> 00:35:03,359
He was talking about how happy
he was when he was with his nephews,

482
00:35:03,360 --> 00:35:05,519
and that was his favourite
thing in the world

483
00:35:05,520 --> 00:35:08,200
to be playing with them in the sea.

484
00:35:10,720 --> 00:35:13,079
He's leaving,

485
00:35:13,080 --> 00:35:15,999
and he stops and turns around
and says,

486
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,319
"Don't worry about Damon.
He's going to be fine.

487
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:21,639
Williams are a great team,
and they are safe.

488
00:35:21,640 --> 00:35:24,319
They'll look after him.
Don't you worry about him."

489
00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:26,879
He literally walked out

490
00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:29,279
and went straight into the garage,
got in his car.

491
00:35:29,280 --> 00:35:31,399
And that was that.

492
00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:37,840
Ayrton was flying.

493
00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:43,920
We're on lap six now.
And Senna is followed by Schumacher.

494
00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:58,519
Now, that is Senna! My goodness.

495
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:00,440
I just saw him plunge off
to the right.

496
00:36:04,800 --> 00:36:07,519
I'd seen him go off.
And my first thought was,

497
00:36:07,520 --> 00:36:10,360
"He'll be annoyed
because he hasn't finished the race."

498
00:36:19,400 --> 00:36:21,199
I can tell from the radio
communications

499
00:36:21,200 --> 00:36:23,480
that it's pretty serious.

500
00:36:28,120 --> 00:36:31,080
The tone of voice is worrying.

501
00:36:33,080 --> 00:36:34,840
"How serious?"

502
00:36:36,280 --> 00:36:38,000
"Serious serious."

503
00:36:46,520 --> 00:36:48,240
What the hell?

504
00:36:49,800 --> 00:36:51,880
How could he go off on that corner?

505
00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:04,479
I was getting limited
information from Williams

506
00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:06,439
because they were concerned
about finding out

507
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:08,479
what had caused the accident

508
00:37:08,480 --> 00:37:13,040
and what they could advise me
to not have the same problem.

509
00:37:15,440 --> 00:37:17,279
So, we'd had power steering
on the car.

510
00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:19,479
They wanted to be reassured

511
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:23,439
that there wasn't something
that was amiss with that.

512
00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:25,679
They said to me on the grid,
"Turn it off.

513
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:27,959
We're going to run without it,
just to be sure."

514
00:37:30,320 --> 00:37:32,560
"Right. That's going to be tough."

515
00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:35,400
I was upset.

516
00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:43,799
You know, "Just bring him in.

517
00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:46,720
Why are you keeping him out
if you don't know?"

518
00:38:07,240 --> 00:38:09,599
I was in the garage,

519
00:38:09,600 --> 00:38:13,199
and I saw one of the team come in

520
00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:15,600
and make a beeline for Patrick.

521
00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:21,600
I saw her say to him
that Ayrton had died.

522
00:38:34,600 --> 00:38:38,840
I don't think I've ever felt
so powerless in my whole life.

523
00:38:40,400 --> 00:38:45,040
It was horrible waiting for him
to just come in in one piece.

524
00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:15,159
We got in our little hire car.

525
00:39:15,160 --> 00:39:18,360
Damon curled up in a little
ball in the back seat.

526
00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:23,680
He kind of vaguely pointed me in the
right direction for the airport.

527
00:39:24,720 --> 00:39:27,920
The plane was utterly silent.

528
00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:32,399
And every now and then
you'd hear somebody having a cry.

529
00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:35,999
I mean, it was utterly silent.

530
00:39:40,720 --> 00:39:44,680
Everyone in the team
was just drained of...

531
00:39:46,240 --> 00:39:48,600
any ability to comprehend.

532
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:29,760
I didn't want to go to any funerals.

533
00:40:32,240 --> 00:40:34,319
Jackie Stewart called me

534
00:40:34,320 --> 00:40:36,439
and asked me, "Are you going
to go to the funeral?"

535
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:38,839
And I said,
"I don't want to go, Jackie.

536
00:40:38,840 --> 00:40:41,320
Erm... I-I don't want to go."

537
00:40:43,920 --> 00:40:46,759
He said, "You'll regret it for the
rest of your life if you don't go.

538
00:40:46,760 --> 00:40:48,839
You have to go." So, for me,

539
00:40:48,840 --> 00:40:52,119
that is like my dad telling me,
"You're going to the funeral."

540
00:40:52,120 --> 00:40:55,639
You know?
Jackie was really close with my dad.

541
00:40:55,640 --> 00:40:59,039
He was of that generation.
And he'd seen enough of his mates

542
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:01,560
lose their lives. And so,
he knew the right thing to do.

543
00:41:03,600 --> 00:41:06,719
And I got on the plane
and went to Ayrton's funeral

544
00:41:06,720 --> 00:41:10,160
and helped carry the coffin.

545
00:41:14,280 --> 00:41:16,480
The last funeral
I'd been to was my dad's.

546
00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:32,720
It was hell emotionally.

547
00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:36,279
It just brought back all those...

548
00:41:36,280 --> 00:41:38,319
feelings, fears,

549
00:41:38,320 --> 00:41:41,880
that I had experienced
when I'd been to my dad's funeral.

550
00:41:58,120 --> 00:41:59,999
For most people in the team,

551
00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:02,479
this was something
they'd never experienced before.

552
00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:06,159
I had to tell my mum that one
of her close friends

553
00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:10,520
and my dad's teammate, Jim Clark,
died when I was six years old.

554
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:17,959
I knew that my dad had experienced
losing his friends in this sport.

555
00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:21,599
And I knew it was a reality.
It was a real possibility.

556
00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:25,119
Did the loss of Jimmy
make you feel any more vulnerable?

557
00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:28,759
Well, yes, quite.
I mean, that was horrible,

558
00:42:28,760 --> 00:42:33,399
and of course, it really brings it
home with a terrible jolt,

559
00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:35,479
and you just feel empty,

560
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:40,159
and it's a terrible time
for any driver.

561
00:42:40,160 --> 00:42:44,039
And it's very difficult to describe
loss and how it affects you.

562
00:42:44,040 --> 00:42:49,160
But you've just
got to draw a blank across it.

563
00:42:50,960 --> 00:42:55,079
I mean, what he went through with
Jim Clark was absolutely horrific.

564
00:42:55,080 --> 00:42:57,399
He'd literally picked up the pieces

565
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:00,639
and put them in the truck and telling
the mechanics to get that car

566
00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:04,120
back to the UK, and we'll work
out what happened later.

567
00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:15,439
I did admire him
enormously for his stoicism

568
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:21,400
and his ability to cope with these
really extreme situations.

569
00:43:22,800 --> 00:43:26,760
I wanted to be as responsible as him.

570
00:43:37,320 --> 00:43:39,519
If I could be of any help

571
00:43:39,520 --> 00:43:42,639
or provide any
kind of comfort or solace,

572
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:45,719
the only way I could do that would be
to produce the results

573
00:43:45,720 --> 00:43:48,320
that they'd worked so hard for.

574
00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:05,599
And that onto the story of my dad
and Jim Clark in that the first race

575
00:45:05,600 --> 00:45:08,959
they won after losing Jim Clark
was the Spanish Grand Prix.

576
00:45:17,680 --> 00:45:21,359
I understood something about
my dad in that process.

577
00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:36,919
This victory
must go to everyone at Williams.

578
00:45:36,920 --> 00:45:38,999
We've been through terrible times.

579
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:42,199
And also to all fans
of Ayrton Senna,

580
00:45:42,200 --> 00:45:44,879
who said to me that they
would be very pleased

581
00:45:44,880 --> 00:45:47,519
to see the Williams team do well.
And er...

582
00:45:47,520 --> 00:45:50,719
So, really, to everyone,
thank you very much.

583
00:46:12,200 --> 00:46:15,399
"OK, listen. We're not beaten yet.

584
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:17,519
There's still a lot of races to go.

585
00:46:17,520 --> 00:46:19,599
I can win this championship.

586
00:46:19,600 --> 00:46:23,119
But I need support.
I need all the good gear.

587
00:46:23,120 --> 00:46:25,399
I need to be able to spearhead this

588
00:46:25,400 --> 00:46:28,240
and I want you to believe
that I can do it."

589
00:46:30,080 --> 00:46:33,639
But following Senna's death,
Renault felt they needed a big name.

590
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:36,040
What do they do? They get Nigel back.

591
00:46:37,880 --> 00:46:40,039
I felt undermined by that.

592
00:46:40,040 --> 00:46:42,160
OK. Ready to go to work?

593
00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:47,919
It seemed to me
to be a vote of no confidence.

594
00:46:47,920 --> 00:46:50,279
And I think it probably
looked like that

595
00:46:50,280 --> 00:46:52,319
to Michael,
who I'm trying to race against.

596
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:56,440
Michael! Michael!
Michael! Michael...

597
00:46:58,480 --> 00:47:00,319
My best chance to show
what I can do

598
00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:02,240
was going to be
at the British Grand Prix.

599
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:16,759
Damon Hill has pole position.

600
00:47:16,760 --> 00:47:21,840
I got pole position,
and he didn't like that.

601
00:47:26,440 --> 00:47:28,239
During the warmup,

602
00:47:28,240 --> 00:47:31,360
the rules are,
you follow the pole guy to the grid.

603
00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:36,080
So, he does this weird thing where he
shoots off and then he overtakes me.

604
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:46,199
And then we had a restart,

605
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:48,280
and he did it again.

606
00:47:51,880 --> 00:47:54,320
He's overtaken me twice now.

607
00:47:57,080 --> 00:47:58,960
"What is going on?"

608
00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:03,160
He'd play these games.

609
00:48:06,480 --> 00:48:08,559
It's a stop and go penalty.

610
00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:10,359
But this time, he got penalised.

611
00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:12,520
And I won the race.

612
00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:17,880
Felt great.

613
00:48:24,320 --> 00:48:26,480
And I was beginning to close the gap.

614
00:48:27,480 --> 00:48:29,759
Alright.

615
00:48:29,760 --> 00:48:32,079
"The Princess of Wales
presents Damon Hill

616
00:48:32,080 --> 00:48:34,239
with his trophy..."

617
00:48:42,480 --> 00:48:45,159
By the time we get to Japan,

618
00:48:45,160 --> 00:48:48,560
the championship
was a real possibility.

619
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:52,679
But they brought Nigel back again.

620
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:55,919
"Why are you guys not behind me?

621
00:48:55,920 --> 00:48:58,359
He can't win the championship.

622
00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:01,639
And if he's going to take
championship points off me,

623
00:49:01,640 --> 00:49:03,959
why would you do it?"

624
00:49:03,960 --> 00:49:06,359
I had a bit of a sulk on,

625
00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:10,240
and Patrick, he gave me a kind of
talking to about my attitude.

626
00:49:11,320 --> 00:49:15,040
At that point I just thought,
"Do you know what? Screw all of you.

627
00:49:16,040 --> 00:49:20,039
If you cannot be grateful for what I
have done

628
00:49:20,040 --> 00:49:24,399
and tried to do for your team
and you think I'm just a misery guts,

629
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:26,440
I'm just going to race for myself."

630
00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:30,160
In a way, it released me.

631
00:49:31,120 --> 00:49:34,080
It released me from the feeling
of obligation to them.

632
00:49:36,520 --> 00:49:38,960
It was like going back
to racing bikes.

633
00:49:42,040 --> 00:49:44,120
It was just freedom.

634
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:08,039
I have to beat Michael.

635
00:50:08,040 --> 00:50:10,079
If I didn't...

636
00:50:10,080 --> 00:50:11,840
it was over.

637
00:50:16,040 --> 00:50:19,720
It had got quite dark because it
was so wet and cloudy.

638
00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:32,960
He got in front of me.

639
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:36,439
I can see the light on his gearbox,

640
00:50:36,440 --> 00:50:39,600
and I thought,
"If I lose sight of that, he's gone."

641
00:50:41,320 --> 00:50:43,799
So, I'm literally driving
and just looking at the red dot

642
00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:47,400
and thinking,
"Just... keep following that light."

643
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:56,720
I ended up on the road ahead of him.

644
00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:02,320
But I could see he was
going to catch me at the last lap.

645
00:51:04,520 --> 00:51:07,079
This is it.

646
00:51:07,080 --> 00:51:09,279
In my head, I said,

647
00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:11,840
"Ayrton, if you're up there,
I could do with a hand."

648
00:51:14,480 --> 00:51:16,240
And something happened.

649
00:51:21,440 --> 00:51:23,280
My foot went to the floor.

650
00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:29,880
My arms are moving in a way that I
felt like it wasn't in my hands.

651
00:51:32,560 --> 00:51:35,279
And then I'm going round turn two

652
00:51:35,280 --> 00:51:38,480
and through the S's
absolutely like a bat out of hell.

653
00:51:39,920 --> 00:51:43,159
I'm released
from this conscious driving

654
00:51:43,160 --> 00:51:45,159
that I've been doing up until now.

655
00:51:45,160 --> 00:51:49,079
I'm absolutely committed
to going as fast as possible,

656
00:51:49,080 --> 00:51:51,560
come what may.

657
00:51:58,480 --> 00:52:01,960
I just felt like I'd been
visited by some sort of...

658
00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:04,880
...spirit.

659
00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:26,119
Damon Hill wins the
Japanese Grand Prix

660
00:52:26,120 --> 00:52:30,119
to close the World Championship
gap between himself

661
00:52:30,120 --> 00:52:33,760
and Michael Schumacher
to just one point.

662
00:53:14,000 --> 00:53:18,799
The Australian Grand Prix will
decide the 1994 World Championship.

663
00:53:18,800 --> 00:53:22,920
Never has a World Championship
been as close for ten years now.

664
00:53:26,840 --> 00:53:29,000
I was so close.

665
00:53:31,320 --> 00:53:33,079
Simple maths:

666
00:53:33,080 --> 00:53:36,999
neither of us finish...
then he's the world champion.

667
00:53:37,000 --> 00:53:39,239
I come in front of him,

668
00:53:39,240 --> 00:53:41,639
I'm the world champion.

669
00:53:41,640 --> 00:53:46,319
It was like we'd just literally got
the cars off the plane from Suzuka

670
00:53:46,320 --> 00:53:48,400
and just re-started the race
in Adelaide.

671
00:53:52,880 --> 00:53:55,360
Got a great start, the race was on.

672
00:54:05,600 --> 00:54:09,840
Gradually he started to eke
away a bit of a gap.

673
00:54:12,280 --> 00:54:15,360
"Ah, no. He's cracked me."

674
00:54:18,600 --> 00:54:21,919
We got to this part of the track
where you couldn't see the next guy.

675
00:54:21,920 --> 00:54:24,639
He's gone round the 90-degree left.

676
00:54:24,640 --> 00:54:26,640
Michael disappears.

677
00:54:28,000 --> 00:54:30,879
I can see him
scrabbling to get back on the track.

678
00:54:30,880 --> 00:54:32,879
His car was damaged.

679
00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:35,600
Now's my chance.

680
00:54:38,680 --> 00:54:40,399
Oh! Out goes Schumacher!

681
00:54:40,400 --> 00:54:43,960
The German is out
of the Australian Grand Prix.

682
00:54:46,560 --> 00:54:51,479
And Damon Hill only has to keep
going to be world champion of 1994,

683
00:54:51,480 --> 00:54:53,879
but can he keep going?

684
00:54:53,880 --> 00:54:58,239
Schumacher should have known his car
was damaged. Damon had the line.

685
00:54:58,240 --> 00:55:00,439
That was a desperate
manoeuvre by Schumacher

686
00:55:00,440 --> 00:55:02,680
to stop Damon Hill winning
the championship.

687
00:55:09,920 --> 00:55:12,240
Do we have anything
to clamp through it?

688
00:55:15,920 --> 00:55:20,319
Michael Schumacher had
waited for Damon Hill to come round.

689
00:55:20,320 --> 00:55:23,600
But he must know by now that
the Englishman is in trouble.

690
00:55:29,000 --> 00:55:31,000
And Hill's shaking his head.

691
00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:43,319
Damon Hill retires
from the Australian Grand Prix,

692
00:55:43,320 --> 00:55:46,079
and the 1994 World Championship

693
00:55:46,080 --> 00:55:49,560
has been won by Michael Schumacher.

694
00:56:52,440 --> 00:56:54,800
Hey, what you doing? Hey!

695
00:56:56,040 --> 00:56:58,199
There abouts.

696
00:56:58,200 --> 00:57:00,000
Warm up now.

697
00:57:01,680 --> 00:57:03,919
And as soon as he saw Damon...

698
00:57:03,920 --> 00:57:06,279
Sees you, turns in.

699
00:57:06,280 --> 00:57:08,520
See, look in the mirror.
Yeah.

700
00:57:13,640 --> 00:57:16,960
Frank and Patrick were very stoic.
Not in their nature to complain.

701
00:57:17,920 --> 00:57:20,120
The FIA should have looked at it.

702
00:57:23,880 --> 00:57:25,720
But they didn't.

703
00:57:26,920 --> 00:57:30,320
Well,
the world's just seen all that.

704
00:57:33,520 --> 00:57:36,599
I was drained at the end of '94.

705
00:57:36,600 --> 00:57:39,359
I had to do a load of PR.

706
00:57:56,520 --> 00:57:59,760
It just ran from one season straight
into the next. And I think I was...

707
00:58:00,960 --> 00:58:04,160
...very on edge, tired and drained.

708
00:58:10,080 --> 00:58:14,960
He hadn't had even time to
process what had happened to Ayrton.

709
00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:20,240
And he just bulldozed
his way through.

710
00:58:25,200 --> 00:58:27,439
The Williams team,
they have the same engine,

711
00:58:27,440 --> 00:58:30,519
and there is no
difference between us.

712
00:58:30,520 --> 00:58:33,319
Maybe then the difference
is in the drivers.

713
00:58:33,320 --> 00:58:36,159
Some can keep it for the whole race,

714
00:58:36,160 --> 00:58:38,680
this performance,
and some do it for one lap.

715
00:58:42,280 --> 00:58:44,200
Thank you.

716
00:58:45,680 --> 00:58:49,079
Damon, congratulations
on the first pole of the year.

717
00:58:49,080 --> 00:58:51,159
How do you feel about the Benetton?

718
00:58:51,160 --> 00:58:53,599
The only thing I can say is that,
erm,

719
00:58:53,600 --> 00:58:56,320
I've learned from the last year
never to underestimate the guy.

720
00:59:05,960 --> 00:59:11,360
Michael Schumacher
had this imperious air about him.

721
00:59:12,360 --> 00:59:15,399
He was naturally very confident,
very smart guy,

722
00:59:15,400 --> 00:59:18,839
and he never wanted to give
anybody anything to go on.

723
00:59:18,840 --> 00:59:20,119
Michael! Michael...

724
00:59:20,120 --> 00:59:21,879
The moment he was
inside that paddock,

725
00:59:21,880 --> 00:59:24,360
he had a wall around himself.

726
00:59:26,480 --> 00:59:29,640
He wasn't going to show any
sign of emotion about anything.

727
00:59:31,000 --> 00:59:34,119
He knew when somebody was weak.

728
00:59:34,120 --> 00:59:37,479
He treated his competitors
with an air of disdain.

729
00:59:37,480 --> 00:59:41,159
In a way, you're beating them
already by doing that

730
00:59:41,160 --> 00:59:43,799
because
that irritates any competitor.

731
00:59:43,800 --> 00:59:46,080
They're not regarded as worthy.

732
00:59:47,640 --> 00:59:50,799
Would you ever consider being
in the same team as Damon Hill?

733
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:54,519
I don't have a problem to be
in the same team than Damon Hill,

734
00:59:54,520 --> 00:59:58,960
and I'm sure he would accept to be
second driver then, so...

735
01:00:01,720 --> 01:00:03,640
And he got under my skin.

736
01:00:04,920 --> 01:00:09,319
But it also worked on Frank
and Patrick.

737
01:00:09,320 --> 01:00:13,319
They also regarded him
as being the kind of driver

738
01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:15,319
they'd prefer to have rather than me.

739
01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:18,839
Damon, what is his
advantage on Michael Schumacher?

740
01:00:18,840 --> 01:00:20,559
Erm...

741
01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:23,679
I'm not sure he has an advantage.
We'll have to see in the race.

742
01:00:23,680 --> 01:00:26,440
And you start to doubt yourself.

743
01:00:27,640 --> 01:00:30,199
Off goes Damon Hill,
out of the race!

744
01:00:30,200 --> 01:00:33,520
And Michael Schumacher
takes the lead.

745
01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:39,520
Being in Formula 1,
it's a very exposing experience.

746
01:00:42,360 --> 01:00:44,960
If you have an ounce of doubt...

747
01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:47,559
...it's found the crack in your armour

748
01:00:47,560 --> 01:00:49,960
and it's straight
into the central nervous system.

749
01:00:51,080 --> 01:00:55,519
Because you yourself might believe
there might be part of that is true.

750
01:00:55,520 --> 01:00:58,760
This way, Damon! Down here...

751
01:01:01,480 --> 01:01:04,680
This way, Damon! Down here...

752
01:01:06,480 --> 01:01:10,999
Aged 11, I just couldn't stop
thinking about this motorbike.

753
01:01:11,000 --> 01:01:14,479
And eventually my dad bought me
one for a birthday present.

754
01:01:14,480 --> 01:01:16,520
Oh! Is it mine?

755
01:01:17,680 --> 01:01:20,839
But he presented it to me
in front of everyone.

756
01:01:20,840 --> 01:01:23,839
Now, you want to be
careful with all these people here.

757
01:01:23,840 --> 01:01:27,199
He wanted to do it at Brands Hatch,
in the paddock,

758
01:01:27,200 --> 01:01:30,760
so that it could be filmed.
It was on display.

759
01:01:31,960 --> 01:01:35,079
Nice to see you're here.
- Thank you, Bruce.
- And you, Damon.

760
01:01:35,080 --> 01:01:37,399
Hello, thank you.
Go on, say something.

761
01:01:37,400 --> 01:01:39,399
Something.
Alright, something.

762
01:01:39,400 --> 01:01:41,679
He's not like you. He can't chat
as much as you, can he?

763
01:01:41,680 --> 01:01:43,879
My dad was good at it.

764
01:01:43,880 --> 01:01:46,159
I wasn't cut out for it.

765
01:01:46,160 --> 01:01:48,520
I didn't want to be pushed
into the limelight.

766
01:01:49,800 --> 01:01:52,120
Being pushed forward
because you're the son of.

767
01:01:56,520 --> 01:01:59,200
If your dad is the star of the show,
then who are you?

768
01:02:02,680 --> 01:02:07,599
He was really, really trying
hard to make this thing happen.

769
01:02:07,600 --> 01:02:10,959
I think he felt there were lots
of things trying to stop him

770
01:02:10,960 --> 01:02:12,840
from achieving that.

771
01:02:13,880 --> 01:02:17,759
He would try to make situations as
difficult as they could possibly be,

772
01:02:17,760 --> 01:02:20,159
to kind of rev himself up.

773
01:02:20,160 --> 01:02:23,319
To get him into that laser focus

774
01:02:23,320 --> 01:02:28,559
that he would need to function
at his highest level.

775
01:02:31,080 --> 01:02:36,960
On occasion involved annoying me
so much that I would bite back.

776
01:02:38,080 --> 01:02:40,039
We were in the motorhome.

777
01:02:40,040 --> 01:02:44,279
He started having this argument with
me, which is completely ridiculous.

778
01:02:44,280 --> 01:02:46,559
And I just thought,
"Do you know what? I can't do this."

779
01:02:46,560 --> 01:02:49,999
And I picked up this massive,
big flower display

780
01:02:50,000 --> 01:02:53,480
and just lobbed it at Damon
and then went storming off.

781
01:02:56,480 --> 01:02:59,560
It was not nice being used as...

782
01:03:00,720 --> 01:03:02,439
...the wind up.

783
01:03:02,440 --> 01:03:04,879
I was anxious.

784
01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:08,200
Too anxious to prove
other people wrong.

785
01:03:11,560 --> 01:03:13,600
And I was angry.

786
01:03:14,520 --> 01:03:17,560
And anger is your worst enemy
in racing.

787
01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:22,959
It will get you
to do something stupid.

788
01:03:22,960 --> 01:03:26,399
And this is really
hotting up to a tremendous battle

789
01:03:26,400 --> 01:03:28,719
between the top two
in the championship.

790
01:03:28,720 --> 01:03:31,079
Well, this is what
the championship should be about.

791
01:03:31,080 --> 01:03:33,759
Two drivers,
the very top of their careers,

792
01:03:33,760 --> 01:03:35,640
battling for the lead.

793
01:03:36,720 --> 01:03:38,480
I was catching Michael.

794
01:03:40,120 --> 01:03:42,040
And he would have known that.

795
01:03:50,560 --> 01:03:55,080
There was something in the way
he opened the door in that corner.

796
01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:01,719
And I got suckered into a move.

797
01:04:01,720 --> 01:04:04,879
Oh, Hill's off! Hill's off!

798
01:04:04,880 --> 01:04:07,719
Oh, disaster,
what has happened to Damon Hill?

799
01:04:07,720 --> 01:04:09,439
Oh, he's hit.
The two cars have collided.

800
01:04:09,440 --> 01:04:11,279
Damon has tried
to pass Michael Schumacher.

801
01:04:11,280 --> 01:04:13,880
And the two cars collided.

802
01:04:18,720 --> 01:04:20,479
Full back page of The Sun.

803
01:04:20,480 --> 01:04:22,880
It says the words "prat".

804
01:04:24,120 --> 01:04:26,399
And it's a quote from your team boss,

805
01:04:26,400 --> 01:04:28,480
the guy that employs you.

806
01:04:32,120 --> 01:04:34,280
That hurts.

807
01:04:41,000 --> 01:04:44,879
Damon Hill needs to
get up to Michael Schumacher

808
01:04:44,880 --> 01:04:48,479
and get past him to improve
his World Championship chances.

809
01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:51,919
Oh, and Hill hits Schumacher.

810
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:53,879
They both go off!
They both go off.

811
01:04:53,880 --> 01:04:56,800
This is a repetition of Silverstone.
Amazing!

812
01:05:01,560 --> 01:05:04,079
The second time now
I'm in front of Damon.

813
01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:07,999
And he took away the possibility for
me to extend the lead too. It's him.

814
01:05:08,000 --> 01:05:11,079
Well, fundamentally,
that was a mistake from Damon Hill.

815
01:05:11,080 --> 01:05:13,119
I think he underestimated

816
01:05:13,120 --> 01:05:15,279
where Michael Schumacher
was going to break.

817
01:05:15,280 --> 01:05:17,039
The disgusted,

818
01:05:17,040 --> 01:05:20,120
angry Michael Schumacher
walks back with Damon Hill.

819
01:05:22,400 --> 01:05:26,879
Damon,
your opinion's important for us.

820
01:05:26,880 --> 01:05:28,959
Because we only have Schumacher's
view.

821
01:05:28,960 --> 01:05:31,919
Alright, I'll say something.
Yeah, OK.

822
01:05:31,920 --> 01:05:34,719
I just wanna know why Michael
was going so slowly.

823
01:05:34,720 --> 01:05:37,759
Why does he suddenly go so slowly in
the middle of the chicane like that,

824
01:05:37,760 --> 01:05:40,159
you know? He was going flat out,

825
01:05:40,160 --> 01:05:42,159
every lap up until
then we're going to flat out.

826
01:05:42,160 --> 01:05:45,799
And then suddenly he's
going about 20ks an hour slower.

827
01:05:45,800 --> 01:05:48,600
The peak of it came in Suzuka.

828
01:05:51,600 --> 01:05:53,839
I had a nightmare race.

829
01:05:53,840 --> 01:05:58,320
Off goes Damon Hill,
bouncing across the gravel.

830
01:05:59,240 --> 01:06:02,159
And this time,
he is out of the race.

831
01:06:02,160 --> 01:06:04,160
Well, words fail me.

832
01:06:10,760 --> 01:06:12,599
And I remember going
to the changing room.

833
01:06:12,600 --> 01:06:15,320
And there was Frank and Patrick
on one side of the room.

834
01:06:18,360 --> 01:06:21,440
I suddenly thought, "I want to cry.

835
01:06:28,880 --> 01:06:31,920
It's gone so badly I wouldn't blame
them if they sacked me on the spot."

836
01:06:37,800 --> 01:06:39,720
And I did go into a depression.

837
01:06:45,800 --> 01:06:49,240
It was just that
kind of cycle of confusion.

838
01:06:50,280 --> 01:06:52,520
"Why is this happening to me?"

839
01:06:54,200 --> 01:06:57,359
Why did you run off two times
at the same corner?

840
01:06:57,360 --> 01:07:00,320
Aren't you frustrated?
Yes.

841
01:07:05,280 --> 01:07:07,199
So, it's really funny
to see you laughing.

842
01:07:07,200 --> 01:07:08,959
Well...

843
01:07:08,960 --> 01:07:11,760
if you don't laugh, you cry.
So, it's better to laugh.

844
01:07:13,600 --> 01:07:17,039
Are there sometimes moments in your
life when you want to stop racing?

845
01:07:17,040 --> 01:07:21,359
Er, well, there's been
a few this year.

846
01:07:21,360 --> 01:07:24,080
Thank you.
OK?

847
01:07:39,200 --> 01:07:42,600
Damon was just 21 when I met him.

848
01:07:44,960 --> 01:07:48,440
It's not that long ago
that his father had died and...

849
01:07:51,160 --> 01:07:53,759
...there was something
about his seriousness

850
01:07:53,760 --> 01:07:57,839
and the fact that he was
a survivor of this awful thing.

851
01:07:57,840 --> 01:07:59,760
And he was still standing.

852
01:08:02,200 --> 01:08:04,959
I thought, "I'll be OK with him.

853
01:08:04,960 --> 01:08:07,839
I'll be absolutely
OK with him."

854
01:08:07,840 --> 01:08:11,839
Because I think he understood
something about life that

855
01:08:11,840 --> 01:08:15,000
most of the people around me
at the time had no understanding of.

856
01:08:26,040 --> 01:08:28,039
I had a lovely childhood.

857
01:08:28,040 --> 01:08:29,959
And when my dad died,

858
01:08:29,960 --> 01:08:33,320
it all went horribly to pieces.

859
01:08:40,600 --> 01:08:42,759
And the rest of my time
has been spent

860
01:08:42,760 --> 01:08:45,000
trying to put it back together again.

861
01:08:47,200 --> 01:08:50,879
Was I a racing driver just simply
because my dad was one?

862
01:08:50,880 --> 01:08:53,159
I felt I had to go through all
of this pain

863
01:08:53,160 --> 01:08:55,560
to put right everything
that went wrong.

864
01:08:56,960 --> 01:08:59,080
But the truth is not that simple.

865
01:09:01,520 --> 01:09:05,560
You can't go back and fix things.
That's the bottom line.

866
01:09:11,960 --> 01:09:15,159
You can make facsimiles of what
was in the past,

867
01:09:15,160 --> 01:09:17,280
but you can't go back
and fix things.

868
01:09:19,800 --> 01:09:21,880
Before I can start being me...

869
01:09:24,280 --> 01:09:27,920
...before I can be the person
that is not just copying his dad...

870
01:09:29,240 --> 01:09:32,399
...not just a facsimile,
not just an echo,

871
01:09:32,400 --> 01:09:35,280
I needed to let go of the past.

872
01:09:44,440 --> 01:09:48,120
Well, there you go, Dad.

873
01:09:51,720 --> 01:09:54,280
I'm a bit nervous.
Got a knot in my stomach.

874
01:09:56,000 --> 01:09:58,440
Be a big disappointment then
for you if he didn't win.

875
01:10:00,040 --> 01:10:03,240
No. As long as he's back safely,
I don't mind.

876
01:10:04,520 --> 01:10:07,519
But deep down, you want him to be
the fastest runner here, don't you?

877
01:10:07,520 --> 01:10:09,919
No, I don't want him
to be a competitive person at all.

878
01:10:09,920 --> 01:10:12,120
I want him to enjoy his life.

879
01:10:14,160 --> 01:10:16,279
You don't think
he can enjoy his life by winning?

880
01:10:16,280 --> 01:10:18,519
I don't want him to always
feel that just because

881
01:10:18,520 --> 01:10:20,879
he hasn't been the best
at something that he's failed.

882
01:10:20,880 --> 01:10:23,400
I think
that's a terrible thing to happen.

883
01:10:33,800 --> 01:10:36,480
Georgie is a constant.

884
01:10:44,560 --> 01:10:48,359
She's not someone
who values the things

885
01:10:48,360 --> 01:10:50,960
that a lot of people
think are important.

886
01:10:55,160 --> 01:10:57,439
She could take it or leave it,
the World Championship.

887
01:10:57,440 --> 01:11:01,400
But she was very aware
of how much it meant to me.

888
01:11:04,680 --> 01:11:07,000
Damon! Damon!

889
01:11:08,120 --> 01:11:13,239
The 1996 Formula 1 World
Championship Grand Prix season

890
01:11:13,240 --> 01:11:16,000
will be starting here at Melbourne.

891
01:11:17,160 --> 01:11:20,319
Frank Williams said that you were
a different man when you arrived.

892
01:11:20,320 --> 01:11:22,599
What happened then?

893
01:11:22,600 --> 01:11:24,919
Oh, I don't know. Er...

894
01:11:24,920 --> 01:11:28,279
I met my wife really,
that was one thing.

895
01:11:28,280 --> 01:11:30,559
She came out and, er...

896
01:11:30,560 --> 01:11:32,520
She's obviously
a good influence on me.

897
01:11:35,040 --> 01:11:38,160
How do you win a championship?
You've got to win the first race.

898
01:11:39,280 --> 01:11:41,680
I just became practical.

899
01:11:43,040 --> 01:11:46,919
Don't get involved in any issues.
Just focus on your job.

900
01:11:46,920 --> 01:11:51,280
New track.
New cars. New engines.

901
01:11:53,000 --> 01:11:55,639
Major driver changes.

902
01:11:55,640 --> 01:11:58,760
Michael Schumacher,
who has gone to Ferrari.

903
01:12:00,200 --> 01:12:04,600
Damon Hill's new teammate, Jacques
Villeneuve, in pole position.

904
01:12:05,600 --> 01:12:08,159
Jacques got pole for his first ever
Formula 1 race,

905
01:12:08,160 --> 01:12:10,039
which is an amazing achievement.

906
01:12:10,040 --> 01:12:12,600
But I was not prepared
to let him have that.

907
01:12:13,520 --> 01:12:15,879
Damon Hill's
all over the back of Villeneuve.

908
01:12:15,880 --> 01:12:17,959
There's obviously
a lot of fraught competition

909
01:12:17,960 --> 01:12:20,799
between these two.
The gloves are off.

910
01:12:20,800 --> 01:12:23,479
Michael had gone to Ferrari,
and they weren't quite ready yet.

911
01:12:23,480 --> 01:12:26,320
He wasn't that competitive.
So, it was between me and Jacques.

912
01:12:27,440 --> 01:12:32,600
Damon Hill takes the lead
ahead of Jacques Villeneuve.

913
01:12:34,960 --> 01:12:37,039
Victory in Australia for Damon Hill.

914
01:12:37,040 --> 01:12:40,319
And he's equalled his great father.

915
01:12:40,320 --> 01:12:44,959
Fourteen Grand Prix wins
for son and father.

916
01:12:44,960 --> 01:12:47,839
I won the first three
races in the season.

917
01:12:47,840 --> 01:12:50,319
I can't really describe it.

918
01:12:50,320 --> 01:12:53,039
It's been a long time since I've
been leading the championship.

919
01:12:53,040 --> 01:12:55,479
Obviously, I just feel
top of the world at the moment

920
01:12:55,480 --> 01:12:57,399
I mean, it's great.

921
01:13:04,400 --> 01:13:06,039
:

922
01:13:06,040 --> 01:13:08,119


923
01:13:14,800 --> 01:13:18,319
The next race
was the Monaco Grand Prix.

924
01:13:18,320 --> 01:13:20,639
Hi, Damon.
Damon.

925
01:13:20,640 --> 01:13:22,799
How are you doing?

926
01:13:22,800 --> 01:13:25,839
Damon, what does Monaco mean to you,

927
01:13:25,840 --> 01:13:28,319
especially concerning the success
of your father here?

928
01:13:28,320 --> 01:13:30,679
It's a great record that he had.

929
01:13:30,680 --> 01:13:34,359
He won five times, which was
beaten by Ayrton, he won six times.

930
01:13:34,360 --> 01:13:38,239
I'd like to win here and then it
would be Hill six and Senna six.

931
01:13:38,240 --> 01:13:42,239
But, erm... I think I'd like
to win just for myself.

932
01:13:42,240 --> 01:13:45,399
Alesi is 28 seconds behind
Damon Hill. Hill, there,

933
01:13:45,400 --> 01:13:48,039
continues to have
this race totally under control.

934
01:13:58,840 --> 01:14:02,480
And he's confident. He's really
achieved new levels this year.

935
01:14:10,720 --> 01:14:13,800
And smoke out of
the back of the Williams!

936
01:14:16,880 --> 01:14:19,439
Damon Hill
out for the Monaco Grand Prix!

937
01:14:19,440 --> 01:14:22,440
He was not destined
to win this race.

938
01:14:33,440 --> 01:14:37,240
I knew that it's never going to be
plain sailing from beginning to end.

939
01:14:44,680 --> 01:14:47,359
I always knew that there was
a middle bit of the season

940
01:14:47,360 --> 01:14:50,840
where your nerves are tested
and your confidence could be shaken.

941
01:14:52,320 --> 01:14:54,799
Especially if you don't expect it.

942
01:14:54,800 --> 01:14:58,079
Damon Hill's future
in Grand Prix motor racing

943
01:14:58,080 --> 01:15:00,359
has been thrown into doubt
after being dropped

944
01:15:00,360 --> 01:15:02,759
by his Williams Renault team
for next season.

945
01:15:02,760 --> 01:15:05,279
Hill, who leads this season's
Drivers' Championship,

946
01:15:05,280 --> 01:15:08,279
had been negotiating a new contract
with the team.

947
01:15:08,280 --> 01:15:10,759
Frank phoned me up and told me,
"Listen,

948
01:15:10,760 --> 01:15:14,439
I'm just here to tell you that we've
got to do what's right for the team

949
01:15:14,440 --> 01:15:17,399
and that we've got
a German driver coming,

950
01:15:17,400 --> 01:15:20,040
and you don't have a drive
with us for next year."

951
01:15:26,320 --> 01:15:29,599
I'd like to give you the opportunity
here today to speak to me,

952
01:15:29,600 --> 01:15:32,279
ask any questions you have,
so that over the weekend

953
01:15:32,280 --> 01:15:34,559
I can concentrate on the job
of winning the race.

954
01:15:34,560 --> 01:15:37,239
If you want to fire away,
then I'm ready for it.

955
01:15:37,240 --> 01:15:41,919
Damon, the world at large
would expect you to feel hurt,

956
01:15:41,920 --> 01:15:45,599
downcast, angry, disillusioned.

957
01:15:45,600 --> 01:15:47,560
What are your feelings?

958
01:15:52,000 --> 01:15:55,639
In a correct world,
you'd be judged on your performances

959
01:15:55,640 --> 01:15:57,719
and that would be rewarded

960
01:15:57,720 --> 01:16:00,000
with another opportunity
to show what you can do.

961
01:16:01,160 --> 01:16:03,879
This deal was done at the end of '95,

962
01:16:03,880 --> 01:16:08,199
and it was linked to a long-term
plan for Frank to get BMW engines.

963
01:16:08,200 --> 01:16:11,559
German driver, BMW engines.

964
01:16:11,560 --> 01:16:14,599
And you're just a pawn in that game.

965
01:16:17,920 --> 01:16:20,959
Hill's got away well.

966
01:16:20,960 --> 01:16:24,280
I'd got away, and now I'm fired up
because I've been sacked.

967
01:16:26,520 --> 01:16:29,079
Damon Hill has impressed mightily.

968
01:16:29,080 --> 01:16:32,640
This must have been the most
difficult weekend of his career.

969
01:16:41,520 --> 01:16:44,199
I get a bit of a gap when I suddenly
think to myself,

970
01:16:44,200 --> 01:16:46,799
"OK, Damon, calm down.
You're driving like a maniac.

971
01:16:46,800 --> 01:16:49,239
Just knock it back a notch."

972
01:16:49,240 --> 01:16:52,760
And I come up to this chicane,
all the focus went.

973
01:16:56,480 --> 01:16:59,399
Oh! Look! Look! Look!

974
01:16:59,400 --> 01:17:01,719
He's hit the... It's Hill!

975
01:17:01,720 --> 01:17:03,599
It's Damon Hill!

976
01:17:03,600 --> 01:17:05,480
He's out!

977
01:17:13,840 --> 01:17:17,919
You can see from the way
he is holding his head

978
01:17:17,920 --> 01:17:20,600
that's he's absolutely distraught.

979
01:17:23,280 --> 01:17:25,480
It was my mistake. I got caught out.

980
01:17:29,360 --> 01:17:33,680
But... I thought,
"I'm not done yet."

981
01:17:39,880 --> 01:17:41,640
Give Daddy a kiss night night.

982
01:17:44,440 --> 01:17:45,679
'Last race.'

983
01:17:45,680 --> 01:17:47,439
Good girl. Sweet dreams.
Night, night.

984
01:17:47,440 --> 01:17:48,719
'I got one more chance.'

985
01:17:48,720 --> 01:17:50,199
Have a nice sleep.

986
01:17:53,720 --> 01:17:56,159
Anything can happen.
Damon can make a mistake.

987
01:17:56,160 --> 01:17:58,519
The car can break down,
and that can happen to me as well.

988
01:17:58,520 --> 01:18:01,119
So, until the last lap...

989
01:18:01,120 --> 01:18:03,560
of the next race,
we'll fight for it.

990
01:18:08,560 --> 01:18:10,999
Stepping into the car,

991
01:18:11,000 --> 01:18:13,439
even though I hadn't had much sleep,
as I could not sleep,

992
01:18:13,440 --> 01:18:16,920
I just thought, "I've done
everything I possibly can do.

993
01:18:18,440 --> 01:18:22,639
I've given 100%," you know.

994
01:18:22,640 --> 01:18:24,400
I honestly had.

995
01:18:40,840 --> 01:18:43,760
I didn't care about
the doubts of others.

996
01:18:48,120 --> 01:18:49,880
I just thought, "I want to win."

997
01:18:56,760 --> 01:19:00,879
The Japanese Grand Prix is... go!

998
01:19:00,880 --> 01:19:05,080
And a brilliant start by Damon Hill,
and Villeneuve has been passed.

999
01:19:14,400 --> 01:19:16,919
And what a superb start
there from Damon Hill.

1000
01:19:16,920 --> 01:19:19,039
His relief will be
absolutely enormous

1001
01:19:19,040 --> 01:19:20,879
because not only has
he got away first,

1002
01:19:20,880 --> 01:19:23,839
he will know that Villeneuve
is well back in his mirrors.

1003
01:19:23,840 --> 01:19:27,999
And there is Jacques Villeneuve,
and he's down in sixth position,

1004
01:19:28,000 --> 01:19:30,920
so he really has got it all to do.

1005
01:19:33,720 --> 01:19:36,799
Damon has got to play it
very cool indeed

1006
01:19:36,800 --> 01:19:39,119
as Gerhard Berger
comes right up alongside him

1007
01:19:39,120 --> 01:19:43,159
and goes over the curb at the
chicane. Damon Hill rebuffed him

1008
01:19:43,160 --> 01:19:45,959
but at the same time kept the
Williams clear of the Benetton,

1009
01:19:45,960 --> 01:19:48,000
and look at the gap he's pulled out.

1010
01:19:52,560 --> 01:19:54,839
Damon has really
got a great opportunity now.

1011
01:19:54,840 --> 01:19:57,679
Things looking very,
very good indeed.

1012
01:19:57,680 --> 01:20:00,159
Ooh, watch it Jonathan,
we've all said that.

1013
01:20:00,160 --> 01:20:04,399
Remember at Monza, Damon Hill
was in the lead,

1014
01:20:04,400 --> 01:20:07,319
commandingly, and on lap six,
he hit that tyre barrier.

1015
01:20:07,320 --> 01:20:09,920
Well, there are no tyre
barriers to hit here.

1016
01:20:16,360 --> 01:20:19,600
And here is Damon Hill, race leader.

1017
01:20:25,480 --> 01:20:29,039
Damon Hill is going to rejoin, is
he, just in front of the Ferrari?

1018
01:20:29,040 --> 01:20:31,600
Yes, he is!

1019
01:20:33,960 --> 01:20:37,399
Wow! That is in full face
of Jacques Villeneuve.

1020
01:20:37,400 --> 01:20:42,240
Now things are really,
really getting hot in Japan.

1021
01:20:43,440 --> 01:20:46,319
Damon, he needs to keep pushing
on pretty hard because

1022
01:20:46,320 --> 01:20:50,360
he will know he can't underestimate
that Canadian teammate of his.

1023
01:20:53,960 --> 01:20:57,080
And that is...
Villeneuve! It's Villeneuve.

1024
01:20:58,560 --> 01:21:01,439
The wheel goes past him.
It goes over! Into the crowd!

1025
01:21:01,440 --> 01:21:04,720
Oh, my goodness.
I do hope that nobody was hurt.

1026
01:21:07,920 --> 01:21:11,400
"Jacques is out.
Jacques is out of the race."

1027
01:21:15,960 --> 01:21:18,200
Going round, they said,
"Jacques out."

1028
01:21:20,280 --> 01:21:22,559
And they said,
"Well done, you're world champion."

1029
01:21:40,680 --> 01:21:43,199
Les Jones, who's one of Damon Hill's
mechanics,

1030
01:21:43,200 --> 01:21:45,799
said they've passed
on the good news to their driver,

1031
01:21:45,800 --> 01:21:47,999
but Damon has not responded at all.

1032
01:21:48,000 --> 01:21:50,919
He's concentrating very
hard on the job in hand.

1033
01:21:50,920 --> 01:21:55,280
Yeah. That's called keeping your
mind on what is really happening.

1034
01:21:57,720 --> 01:21:59,680
"This is the last lap, Damon."

1035
01:22:10,920 --> 01:22:13,240
It's a long road.

1036
01:22:14,200 --> 01:22:18,320
And you can say it started
when my dad died.

1037
01:22:31,440 --> 01:22:34,479
The teams in their
blue-and-white caps,

1038
01:22:34,480 --> 01:22:37,439
matching the helmet of Damon Hill,

1039
01:22:37,440 --> 01:22:40,960
which matches the helmet
of his great father, Graham Hill.

1040
01:22:44,400 --> 01:22:46,599
He is almost home.

1041
01:22:46,600 --> 01:22:48,359
This is something that many people

1042
01:22:48,360 --> 01:22:50,439
didn't think
could possibly happen today.

1043
01:22:50,440 --> 01:22:54,479
They thought Damon would drive
a cautious race. But he fought.

1044
01:22:54,480 --> 01:22:57,479
He fought from second on the grid,
he passed Jacques Villeneuve,

1045
01:22:57,480 --> 01:22:59,920
he took the lead, he stayed there.

1046
01:23:08,440 --> 01:23:11,160
Damon Hill exits the chicane...

1047
01:23:13,400 --> 01:23:16,479
...and wins the Japanese Grand Prix.

1048
01:23:18,480 --> 01:23:22,120
And I've got to stop because
I've got a lump in my throat.

1049
01:23:37,120 --> 01:23:40,079
I had just literally
completed the mission.

1050
01:24:21,840 --> 01:24:24,960
And suddenly... the impact hits me.

1051
01:24:25,960 --> 01:24:27,759
Hits me what I've done.

1052
01:24:27,760 --> 01:24:31,280
What I've been able to drag
out of myself.

1053
01:24:33,800 --> 01:24:36,000
You're aware of the journey
that you've been on.

1054
01:24:37,640 --> 01:24:40,680
And then also how much
I miss my dad.

1055
01:24:41,640 --> 01:24:43,520
Daddy!

1056
01:24:46,880 --> 01:24:51,680
And how much he would like to have
known about his son.

1057
01:24:53,760 --> 01:24:55,479
But...

1058
01:24:55,480 --> 01:24:59,040
in some other curious way, you
kind of feel like he does know.

1059
01:25:01,200 --> 01:25:04,080
Well done to Damon Hill,
the new world champion.

1060
01:25:44,960 --> 01:25:47,520
Three, two, one...